rough week

This week was awful, I'll say it. I'm now going to sweat out my frustrations at the gym. I'll leave on this note:

Men best show their character in trifles, where they are not on their guard. It is in the simplest habits, that we often see the boundless egotism which pays no regard to the feelings of others and denies nothing to itself.
Arthur Schopenhauer


a hint of a spark

Today is Tuesday, the 17th of January 2012 and today is the first day I saw the faintest glow from the sun. After forty days of night I saw the slightest aura above the horizon. I almost peed myself with excitement. It may have been because I worked 15 hours today and its finally over, it may have been because I had ice cream for lunch instead of real food as a celebration but man, this day has been made. The tiniest spark of light peeking over the hills was enough to remind me that the sun was coming. Twilight.

I don't know if many people noticed, but after the plane took off I was outside in the -35 degree breeze, sitting in the snow bank, bundled up in my parka and drinking a hot chocolate while star gazing. Recently people have been so down and not wanting to do much. It is a constant soul search for positivity at this time of the year. Either way for me, it doesn't matter if the cup is half full or half empty there's still more room for hot chocolate!

In the dark, you re-think your life over and over, who you want to be, what you want to do, how you are going to accomplish all your goals, you miss your family, your friends, the light and the happiness and light heartiness that comes with the day. But the one thing I have learned here, is you truly find out who you are.

You are given the option to eat healthy food, be active, given the choice to stay in your room alone, to put yourself out there and meet people and to become a part of a small but wonderful community. All of it however is a choice you have to make for yourself. I am thankful to have such a wonderful support system back home with my family and friends. Thank you so much for keeping me positive and reminding me that even the smallest hint of a spark can start a fire.

Hopefully shedding some of this light on things will catch on soon can't wait to see it tomorrow.